Fools Paradise

I realised in January that I’m always going to want this lifestyle. Ive struggled with this lifestyle for 6 months but every time Pink and I stop then I feel like I’m missing something. I know now that when I get feelings that I don’t want to continue that its temporary. My wife now knows that she is in control because I truly want to submit to her.

This has made it easier for her and I. She knows if I rebel that she will get hers when (not if) I submit again. And she reminds me that I will always want her to be my Dom.
We talked about my punishment for rebelling and we both agreed that it shouldn’t be something I enjoy because that would make me want to rebel to get punished. My punishment is with something very severe that we used one time and I could only take 4 swats with before yelling my safe word. After that it was dismantled till now and is reassembled as a reminder what I get for severe punishments. If she ever has to use it I will post what it is here and how well I handled it.

Now we are the happiest we have ever been together because I’m not bad trying to get spanked. Which is what Ive been doing for 6 months, get her upset so she would spank me. Also if I have anything to say I make sure I’m not topping from the bottom and if she feels that I am then I withdraw my statement.

 My wife was suspicious about a few things in our marriage. We where fooling around one night and she had her hand on my cock and it was all lubed up. She was stroking it real slow and it felt so good. She started to talk to me and asking me questions. I couldn’t help my self but to tell her everything she wanted to know  hoping that if I did she would let me explode. She found out some bad stuff. I thought she was going to leave me so I offered her to punish me. Reluctantly she agreed because she wasn’t into hurting me. She started spanking me every night and it was suppose to last 60 nights. some nights it was real bad and I was black and blue for the entire summer. That’s how we found our masochist and sadist sides of our self. Since then she has used that technique on me a few times and I cant resist it even knowing what she is doing. She even gave me suggestions wile doing it and I wanted to follow her directions the next day. I call my penis The communication port to my brain. Men don’t think with their dicks but a woman sure can communicate with it. This is something you might have to start with little things and probably best let him get off if he cooperates with you to condition his mind.  3 months after she did that we read the same thing on another website Real Women Don’t Do Housework worth  reading.

A few months after we started our journey into our female led relationship my wife decided we needed a chastity device for me to wear when she was at work since her schedule was changed to night shift, not really to keep me from masturbating which has been a real problem in her eyes since we where married in Oct of 2003 but to remind me of her when she is gone. Masturbation stopped when she took control in Aug. 07 which has been a part of my life at least once a day since i was 13 but in my younger days it wasn’t uncommon for me to do it 3 to 6 times a day, some times I couldn’t wait till I got home from school and would stop at the bowling alley and jack off in the bathroom. So we measured and picked one out and decided on the curve because it was thicker and longer then the rest and would allow me a little bit of a erection in my sleep. I couldn’t wait for it to arrive, It was like Christmas for me. I liked it so much I wanted to wear it more then at night when she was working. So we bought the cb 3000 for daytime use But they were not secure, We bought the points that are supposed to make it uncomfortable to take off but if you lubed it up real good you could slowly pull it off, We bought this ring kdg something or other that didn’t work at all. I adjusted everything as tight as it could be without making my balls turn blue and showed her how I could pull it off with a little bit of lube then I put a plastic lunch bag over my cock and put some lube on it and worked everything back into place in about 10 min. and pulled the bag out of the hole in the end. We both where not happy about this and I told her that if I can get out of it then I will. She stopped asking me to wear it for a few weeks and searched the Internet for a way to make it secure and then approached me and said she wanted to take me to get a PA ( prince Albert) . Then I started searching the net trying to find a better idea but couldn’t find anything else. So we went and got a ring put in my cock and it wasn’t so bad at first but after a few days and it started to heal it was really rough. Here it is 2 1/2 months later and 2 months of no control and I approached my wife after reading this blog Devastating Yet Inconsequential And told her how much I craved her to take control again. And she did, she put me over her knee and spanked me with a wooden shower brush for masturbating a few times and told me I had to start wearing my CB again when she went to work. With the PA and a cable that runs threw it I cant think of any way to get it off without a key. We negotiated a few things and she asked what I required for frequency of orgasms and I told her that shouldn’t be negotiable but something she decided. I cant tell you how she feels but her control over that puts butterflies of excitement in my stomach. I don’t know what she has in mind for me but the suspense of where we are going probably make me one of the happiest men in the world.

Hi Every one. I’m starting this blog to write about my fantasy’s of a female led relationship with my wife.

Our Female led relationship had a very rough start but it seems things are really going great now.  I feel a deep desire to let pinkskymissy (my wife) have her way. I’m not much of a writer but this blog is really just for me to express my fantasy’s and experiences and express my opinions without having to worry about being  hassled at other sites.