Fools Paradise

I have to have my CB on when I’m getting punished so I didn’t take it off when she got home from work this morning and she thought that was odd till I told her I looked at porn and got my rocks off.( I have my choice between the curve or 3000. After I put new siding on the house I get rewarded with a 6000. We have spent probably close to $600 so far just on my chastity but its just so exiting. I want them all especially a Lori ) She didn’t look happy about the porn. She asked me if I knew what that meant and I said yes. she told me to get the one I made out of a electric cord and I did. she set it on the kitchen table and we finished our coffee as it sat there for me to look at. I couldn’t help but get exited not because of the punishment but because she was following through with what she said. She made me get on all fours on the couch and she swung and hit me. It took a sec before I felt the sting. It hurt but not as bad as the 1st time she used it last summer. I knew she was going light after the 1st swing. She gave me 4 swats that turned red and welted up instantly. It hurt but not as bad as before. After wards she gave me a hug and told me she loved me and that was real nice. We had another cup of coffee in the kitchen and smoked a cig. I told her how I felt that she did the right thing and I was proud of her for following through with her punishment. She felt good about it also. She said I have to leave my CB on the rest of the day and she has to work tonight so it wont be coming off till at least tomorrow morning. That made me feel real dominated. We are back on track and I’m so happy that things are finally taking shape even with our limited time we can spend. Thanks Miss Bonnie for helping me with the courage to fess up and take it. She finally has the confidence that turns me on and I really adore her for that. I can honestly say this is the most fulfilling relationship I’ve ever had in my entire life and I hope it doesn’t stop developing. Luna was right about Pinksky she is a great Domme.

I realised in January that I’m always going to want this lifestyle. Ive struggled with this lifestyle for 6 months but every time Pink and I stop then I feel like I’m missing something. I know now that when I get feelings that I don’t want to continue that its temporary. My wife now knows that she is in control because I truly want to submit to her.

This has made it easier for her and I. She knows if I rebel that she will get hers when (not if) I submit again. And she reminds me that I will always want her to be my Dom.
We talked about my punishment for rebelling and we both agreed that it shouldn’t be something I enjoy because that would make me want to rebel to get punished. My punishment is with something very severe that we used one time and I could only take 4 swats with before yelling my safe word. After that it was dismantled till now and is reassembled as a reminder what I get for severe punishments. If she ever has to use it I will post what it is here and how well I handled it.

Now we are the happiest we have ever been together because I’m not bad trying to get spanked. Which is what Ive been doing for 6 months, get her upset so she would spank me. Also if I have anything to say I make sure I’m not topping from the bottom and if she feels that I am then I withdraw my statement.